Avoidance

I've been neglecting this blog. Except it's not really neglect. It's avoidance. I've been avoiding this blog because as much as I want to face my demons... I don't want to face my demons.

I need to look back. To dissect all that went wrong. To learn from it. To move on from. And to never make those mistakes again.

I need it. And I want it. and still....

I'd rather keep my head buried in the sand. Never looking back.

I'd rather struggle blindly forward and hope it will all turn out well. But I know the folly in that. I know there is no going forward, without first looking back.

If not now... then when? I must stop the avoidance.