There was a time when this blog was my lifeline. It gave voice to my pain and helped me to struggle through and to heal in some ways.
It was also a link to community. A community of women who had been hurt by SA. That community seems to have vanished.
I myself drifted away. Hub's SA never completely stopped but it changed in ways and so did I. I got to a point where it didn't weigh me down. I still feel as though I've not reached the surface, but I am no longer stuck down in the rocks. I am stronger for my struggles, even if I seem no wiser most of the time. But I got to a point in which I no longer needed to be tethered to life by the community.
I wonder about them all now. Those women who hurt and struggled along with me in those darkest of days? Did they find what they needed to heal? Did they move on? Are they still crushed down in the depths of SA bullshit?
All the old blogs have grown silent, as has mine. So I wonder....
Is anybody out there?
