peering around the corner into reality

I haven't turned the TV on all day!
No movies.
No TV shows.
All I have done is school work and laundry!


I am attempting to re-enter reality. It hasn't killed me yet.

Escapism?

Society pushes and pressures us to do more, to be more. It asks questions like...

what have you done to improve the world?

what have you done for others?

what have you done to better yourself?

what are you doing to make the most of your time?

It fills us with idea like...

you must be accomplished to be truly happy.

you must work on changing your negative traits.

you must be thin.

you must be active.

you must be involved in society in some way through activities and service.

I ask...

WHY?!?

Is there anything wrong with the fact that I am quite happy to just stay home and not be involved?

Is there anything wrong with the fact that I do not want to improve myself?

Is there anything wrong with the fact that I actually enjoy laying around the house in sweats and a tshirt watching movies?

Do I really have to be involved in something to be happy?

Do I really have to socialize with others to be happy?

Do I really need to try and change myself or the world to justify my existence?

I really am happiest when I am just comfortable being myself and yes, that means wearing sweats, laying on the couch, and watching a good movie or my favorite tv show.

Is there something wrong with that?

Is it escapsim? Am I trying to avoid "the real world" by getting lost in a movie?

Or is it just that I enjoy watching movies more than making crafts or exercising or going to lunch with friends or playing some type of sport, or playing bunko, or sitting in the park with other moms, or volunteering at the school or the church, or doing one of the million other things that women do to spend their time?

Is it an escape from reality? Or is my reality just that this is what makes me happy?

Is it wrong that this is what makes me happy?

Is it wrong that I do not have the drive to do more?

Is it wrong that I am content to be entertained rather than driven to change myself or the world?

I do wonder if this is escapism. but I also wonder why I shouldn't be allowed to just do what makes me happy without society telling me that it makes me worthless. If it doesn't hurt anyone then why should it be wrong?

So.... is it an escape from reality? or is it just my reality?